Leave Everything

Yesterday, after almost two months, I was given a chance to speak before my pastorate. I spoke an exhortation sermon, which is not like my typical sermon and probably one of the reasons why I was a bit hesitant to speak. Nevertheless God worked in me as I was preparing that sermon. I know many would be hit "bull's eye" when I speak. So I asked God to intervene and make my sermon as affectionate as it can be. I prayed that it would be able to leave an impact in someone's life. God has been so gracious to me, he guided me in my come-back sermon and the message was able to move the hearts of the brethren. After the service, I thanked God and gave Him all the credit for everything was due to Him. I know it will also work for you, If you LEAVE EVERYTHING to God and give Him all the credit.

My Laundry Experience!

I woke up this morning at 7 o'clock.I had my devotional and prayed after. Knowing that I have a lot of things to accomplish, I went right away at the back of my house and started washing my clothes. I was pressured to finish it as early as I can. So I poured out all the strength that I have to finish it. After 2 hours, I was able to finish it. When I went back in my house, I felt so exhausted and burned out. Then I realized that I forgot to eat my breakfast. No wander I ran out of energy. I felt that I will not be able to finish my remaining duties of the day. This made me realize that it is really essential for our physical bodies to take some energy by eating breakfast for us to be able to do our whole day tasks.
However, physical nourishment is not enough for us to survive the whole day. We also need spiritual food which is more important. I'm just glad I was able to feed my spiritual body before I started my tasks. One thing I have missed in my laundry experience.

Alone?

Life as a bachelor has a lot of advantages when you are in the ministry. Compared to a family man, it is easier for me to go wherever and whenever my service as a minister is needed. But behind those advantages is the feeling of emptiness that somehow says "I need a companion". There are times when I can't find someone to share my burdens with. I can't share it to anyone in my pastorate neither to my loved ones because I know they look high on me. I am afraid I might disappoint them if they see my weakness. My girlfriend has been away and out of the country for quiet a long time now. I long for her company and for the time when I could call her and share my burdens with her. However, I still believe that God sets a right time for everything. I just have to wait. For now, I might feel empty because I don't have a partner in my ministry, but am I alone? No! My Big Boss is behind me!

The Heart of a Great Pastor!

I have never felt as bored in my ministry as way I got bored these past weeks. I came to a point when I started asking myself again if I am fitted in the ministry. My ministry's momentum began to subside. My everyday routine of giving Bible studies and visitation has become senseless to me. That's why I started to doubt my 'calling' again. A week of sleepless nights began to bother me and eventually made me invisible in some of the church activities. I could hardly find myself strong enough to lead and be zealous enough to encourage the brethren in the services of the church. I just feel disconnected with God and so far from Him. After a week of struggling alone, I began to share my feelings with my mom. It was then that I realized that I have been struggling alone. I have been so fed up with the messages I preach that I have already lost sight of my own spirituality. How could I be a good pastor if I can't minister to myself? How can I push other people to have faith in God if I myself doubt my calling? When I began to realize these, God pointed me on reading some promises in the Bible and gave me a chance to encounter the book entitled "The Heart of a great Pastor". The Bible and this book helped me to regain my confidence in my calling. I'm just glad that God never ceases to remind me and revive me whenever I'm in doubt!

Somebody Help Me!

I have been pastoring for almost 2 years now. I have already faced many challenges in my ministry and I could say that I have overcome a lot them. From the failures in my programs, financial setbacks, up to the criticism I get from the brethren, these, I have already overcome. However, something has been really bothering me for more than a week now. It has been 4 nights already that I have not been sleeping well at night because that dilemma never leaves my mind. I think I am starting to be fed up with my daily routines. I can see that passion within me to work harder each day starting to subside. Am I really called? Will I be able to continue my ministry? Am I really fitted for this job? These are some of the questions that have been running in my mind. What causes these doubts? Is it part of the test of my commitment to the ministry? Or I am just starting to realize that I am not meant for this noble work? Somebody help me!

If Only He Could Hear

Our church has been undergoing renovations these past weeks. Yesterday I was able to watch some of the workers doing repairs in our comfort room. In one corner, there were two workers, of which one is deaf. I was amazed at how the deaf was able to manage working with the normal people. However, what really caught my attention was how they were able to work together and finish a lot of things despite of disability. If only the deaf could hear, they could have accomplished more things quickly. As I was looking at the workers, I asked myself, if they could work well together how much more we, who are normal and gifted with the sense of hearing. Often, we just need to listen to one another to accomplish more things rather doing our tasks alone.