I have never felt as bored in my ministry as way I got bored these past weeks. I came to a point when I started asking myself again if I am fitted in the ministry. My ministry's momentum began to subside. My everyday routine of giving Bible studies and visitation has become senseless to me. That's why I started to doubt my 'calling' again. A week of sleepless nights began to bother me and eventually made me invisible in some of the church activities. I could hardly find myself strong enough to lead and be zealous enough to encourage the brethren in the services of the church. I just feel disconnected with God and so far from Him. After a week of struggling alone, I began to share my feelings with my mom. It was then that I realized that I have been struggling alone. I have been so fed up with the messages I preach that I have already lost sight of my own spirituality. How could I be a good pastor if I can't minister to myself? How can I push other people to have faith in God if I myself doubt my calling? When I began to realize these, God pointed me on reading some promises in the Bible and gave me a chance to encounter the book entitled "The Heart of a great Pastor". The Bible and this book helped me to regain my confidence in my calling. I'm just glad that God never ceases to remind me and revive me whenever I'm in doubt!
